shatteredservice: Dia-Past (Past)
Dia ([personal profile] shatteredservice) wrote2012-12-17 07:26 pm

The Light of Countless Wishes

Legend says that its light is made from all of the wishes of mankind--past, present, and future.  When I saw it the first time, I had no doubt that was true.  What else could so quickly defeat the monster we had been fighting all night?  It was easy for that power made of something so pure and vital to every living thing to destroy what several Heroic Spirits working together couldn't even touch.

And it was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen.

The second time I saw it my eyes were clouded by corruption, but it had lost none of its beauty.  Perhaps in some ways it was even more beautiful than before because I knew it now carried my wish along with those of so many others.

Release.

Release from the cage my body had become when my master sacrificed me to whatever had twisted the war from its usual rules and given this unknown evil inside of me the ability to grant wishes to whoever was willing to pay its price.

To regain the family he had lost, my master willingly traded me to it.  He command spelled me into stillness and then severed my arm to conduct the ceremony as he had been told to.  As great of a violation of trust as that was, it was nothing in comparison to the feeling of violation that came from that darkness flooding into my body.  And there was nothing I could do but drown within it.

I never thought I would wake up; I wished I had not because it was a hell like I could never have imaged to be forced to sit and watch the corruption use my body to kill so many of the others who were involved in the war.  Painfully.  Brutally.  Dishonorably.  The fact that I was missing an arm did not slow it down at all.

Then she finally tracked me down.  Cornered what was left of me in a place that the corruption couldn't pull me from.  After that, it only took a moment.  A moment for her to release the light of countless wishes.  A moment for me to grab temporary control and force myself still in the face of that light.

A moment to be purified and finally set free.

Yet now, circumstances have made me realize I might not be so free as I thought.  Could part of that corruption--that taint--still be there?  The Beast said the other day that there is something stirring inside of me.  He claimed to be lying later, but at the same time I know my emotions have felt different lately.  At one time hatred and rage were foreign to me.  Now they are starting to become all too familiar.  Might a small seed of corruption still be in me?  Or is it just that my emotions were that badly damaged by my time corrupted in the war?

I don't know.  What I do know is that I believe I now have a new wish.

If I can find no one else with this journal, King of Knights I hope that I will someday find you.  If I must be removed from this world again, then I would have it be by the light of your blade and none other.
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[personal profile] penisenvy 2012-12-18 05:39 am (UTC)(link)
Mordred had been able to make a pretty good life for herself after the Shatter. If you called taking over a local gang of deliquents good. Technically, she had a roof over her head, even if it was just an abandoned building somewhere. And she had food, even if she took it from stores when no one was looking (they didn't grow the fruit or own the land the fruit spouted on so it was fair game). She even had electronics, though she picked them out of the lost and found and never used them for too long before leaving them in the same building where she had acquired them.

And it was in the process of searching blogs (those things were bloody addictive) that she stumbled upon this rambling epic poem. It is overwrought and saccharine, but she cannot watching until the video ends, and when it does, she wants to tear out her brain and eyeballs and dip them in the nearest vat of cleaning solution. It's several minutes of her life that she will never get back.

Luckily, the video has a reply option. As bad as the phone's camera may be, she still wants to let whatever asshole on the other end know they can't talk like that without consequences.

"Are you talking about I think you're fucking talking about? If so, then you have got to be shitting me."
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[personal profile] penisenvy 2012-12-18 09:12 pm (UTC)(link)
"King Arthur, duh."

She rolls her eyes. Did he really think that she could guess anyone else with all the hints he was dropping?

"You're a Heroic Spirit, aren't you? Then stop acting like an embarrassing little shit and fantasizing about Arthur's Excalibur. Because that's GAAAAAAAAAAAAY."

She smirks. Modern English had so many good ubiquitous words.

"That's right. I said it. You're the gayest gay thing I've ever seen, and I've seen some pretty gay stuff."
Edited 2012-12-18 21:12 (UTC)
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[personal profile] penisenvy 2012-12-18 10:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Now it's Mordred's turn to be confused. But it soon turns to disgust and maybe even embarassment. As always, her default reaction is to cover it up with aggression and overconfidence.

"Well fuck your partner up the ass as hard as you want. Just get your grubby hands off my Father."
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[personal profile] penisenvy 2012-12-19 01:36 am (UTC)(link)
A growl, more animal than human, rises from her throat. Forgetting the fact that she is in a public area, her voice rises into scream.

"HOW DARE YOU! How dare you claim that I am anything but the perfect successor to His Majesty King Arthur of the Britons and the inheritor of his dragon blood! I will personally rip you to shreds for this insult upon my person! You pig-swiving, insolent, dastardly knave and MONGREL!"
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[personal profile] penisenvy 2012-12-19 02:27 am (UTC)(link)
She settles into a scowl.

"Fine. Mordred. Sir Mordred. Consider this the only courtesy I will show you, cur."
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[personal profile] penisenvy 2012-12-19 03:42 am (UTC)(link)
When she saw him bow, Mordred offered a stiff, awkward bow of her own. Her anger had dulled a bit when faced with his politeness, even if she was still quite creeped out at his feeling toward her father. She too had been a knight once.

"Diarmuid...from Ireland, correct? It seems the women of your country have a habit of running off with their husbands' knights."

She remembers the beautiful Isolde and how she was always talking about how way back in the past, one of her aunts had done something similar. Run away with the most beautiful one of her husband's knights...

"I would suggest you watch your husband closely. Lest he run off with some other knight who shows up out of nowhere."
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[personal profile] penisenvy 2012-12-19 04:21 am (UTC)(link)
"Cu Chulainn..."

She has heard little snatches of his legend. After all, he was a great hero in the British Isles.

"That famous Son of Light? You must be a lucky man."

So she's a bit of a fan. So what? The man was famous.
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[personal profile] penisenvy 2012-12-19 05:16 am (UTC)(link)
"..."

She buries her face in the palm of one of her hands.

"What. The. Fuck. I think I just tasted bile!"
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[personal profile] penisenvy 2012-12-19 05:56 am (UTC)(link)
"Because I was fucking pissed off at your creeptastic love letter to my Father. Congratulations. You've just given me something else that won't come out of my mind."

She shakes her head, trying in vain to clear her mind.
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[personal profile] penisenvy 2012-12-19 09:40 pm (UTC)(link)
"How does Cu Chulainn even stand you? I mean, do you take the time to wax poetic on his Gae Bolg when he comes home at night?"

If overly poetic speeches were flowery, then Diarmuid was spitting flowers.
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[personal profile] penisenvy 2012-12-19 11:35 pm (UTC)(link)
"Grainne?"

She knows that she has heard this name before, but she cannot remember where. She repeats it over in her mind.

"I think someone I know...knew a Grainne."
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[personal profile] penisenvy 2012-12-20 01:14 am (UTC)(link)
"That sounds familiar."

Wait a moment...it sounds exactly like that one story Isolde was telling.

"Was Grainne a daughter of the High King? And did you have five children? Four boys and a girl?"
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[personal profile] penisenvy 2012-12-20 02:27 am (UTC)(link)
"I see...my apologies for bringing that up."

She remains silent for a moment. This is how a parent should think of their offspring. She wonders if her parents would think the same of her.

Probably not. Mother probably only cared for her as long as she had some use as a tool. Father probably saw her as a traitor and a child with tainted blood. Neither one would mourn her.

"But...if that's the case, you're..."

She pauses and looks away. She is too embarrassed to look him in the face.

"You're Isold's uncle."

This makes him a generation ahead of her, which means she had disrespected her elder.

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