shatteredservice: Dia-Glow (Glow)
While I don't feel comfortable using this to connect to others until I find out exactly why it is acting as it is, I suppose I can use it for its other purpose.  I'm still not sure why writing about what has happened to me would be any more therapeutic than talking or thinking about it.  However, if there is a chance it can help me and by extension, help Set, then I have to try.

It is commonly said that the best place to start is at the beginning, but in my case that would be counterproductive.  All one has to do to find out about my beginnings is to look up the legends surrounding my lord, Fionn mac Cumhaill.  Within them is found my story.

Perhaps at this point it would be more correct to say "his" story.  "He" being the Heroic Spirit Diarmuid Ua Duibhne whose soul I am a part of.

That I should be a part of.  If he still exists.  It scares me to think that after the Shatter I may be all that remains of him.

It is not right.  I am a flawed copy.  I should not have survived him.

Many Servants changed their names after the Shatter to facilitate their movement into normal society.  It's pretty hard to expect someone to take you seriously when you introduce yourself as Cu Chulainn.  Setanta isn't much better, but at least people can pronounce Set.

I shortened my name for a different reason.  I have lived too many lives, been maimed and had my soul violated in the worst way possible.  I may still wear his face and use his skills, but I am no longer him.

It would be an insult to say I was....

...And this is not helping.  Nor is it what I meant to talk about in the first place.

Maybe I'm expecting too much from a mere internet application.

Maybe I'm expecting too much of...me.

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Nov. 7th, 2012 06:13 pm
shatteredservice: Dia-Pair (Pair)


Ah ha!  So this is what you've been working on all secret-like today!  Kinda hard to keep it a secret, boyo, when you leave it up and on.

Though just maaaybe me 'losing' the keys had more to do with you leaving it out where I could find it.  That could be possible.  Maybe even likely....

Hmmm....so it looks like you're ready to do this finally, right?  Ready to get it all out and in the open.  They find you--they find you.

I'm behind you 100% on this, but you already know that.  It's the least I can do after everything.

Just not so sure why you bothered making so many icons for me.  You might be ready to talk, but I'm pretty happy NOT thinking much about back then.

The Beast would rather not think about that time either and I try not to argue with him.  Never ends well as you know...

I suppose that's why you just set up the one account, right.  If you assume I'm not going to use it, then I will just to mess with you.

Ha...damn....got me all figured out, don't you?  Well, I guess it's probably about time considering how much we've been through.

Just don't blame me if I suddenly becoming boring and monoton.....haha!  Who am I kidding?  The only way boring will ever apply to either of us is if we end up back on the Throne and I have no intention of heading back there anytime soon.  I know you don't plan on it either.  We've been through too much shit just to let things go that easy especially since no one knows if the stupid thing is still working after The Shatter...

...Damn, got me talking after all.  Now I need a drink...or to break something.  Wanna join me once your done poking around here?  Drink or fight, your choice even.  Just don't keep me waiting too long.  The Beast's stirring around now and I gotta do something to settle it down before it decides to 'settle' itself.

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